The Past is never the Best

School starts in... 6 more hours.
The past 2 weeks off had been... Quite flashback-y
Gue kembali reuni bersama geng-geng lama gue di SMP, and i realize that we weren't that different at all from where we were back then. Nothing particularly has change.
But something new happened, when a friend from a very long past of mine came by, from my first elementary school which i left when i was 2nd grade.
It was really weird how i still remember so much stuffs from back then, we talked about other friends and how much they have change.
Being with her, made me miss my old life, when i was still a child and have no problem except when my mom didn't let me keep a colored chick that some guy sell infront of my school.
My life then was pretty amazing, i always like it then than now. And talking to her and realizing that every friends i had there still has an amazing life now, made me think, what might have been if i never left them?
What would I be now,
Or with whom will i be hang out with.
Will i have a life as cool as them.
Or make me a lot different person than i am today.
But then i remember, how sad i was as a person, even when I'm only a child. I was that type of girl who's envy of the pretty girls. I want to be friends with them, and i want to be them.
And that what made me stop thinking, and stop wishing to go back.
I'm fine as i am now, I'm not perfect i have a lot of flaws, but I'm glad to be me at this point of time. I'm surrounded by a bunch of stupid people I loved. So why would i wanna go back?
There's no point of holding on to the past, this is the future, this is now. And you got everything to control it, its your destiny.

So kid, no matter how much the past seems so wonderful to you, that's just that, and you could not have them back, instead you just gotta be loving what you have now, and fight for your future ahead.

1:03 AM
Fuuuuuuuu-!

The Worst Nightmare

What if we die tomorrow
What if our family's gone
and left you all alone
What if everything's not working out
What if everything we do is wrong
What if our do's will scared people away
What if the next journey of our lives are gonna be so much harder
What if our loved ones left us
What if things turned out to be different than we imagine
What if there's nothing we can do to make things better
What if... You die before you can make yourself proud

ARSP
11:18 PM
Last day before school starts.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION = BULLSH*T???

Kenapa kayanya cuma gue yang ngerasa kalo tahun baru itu bukan sesuatu yang spesial??

Jam 11:59 December 2015 tidak ada bedanya dengan jam 00:00 Januari 2016. Ya memang pergantian tahun. Tapi, setiap hari juga pergantian tanggal. Pergantian jam. Pergantian detik. Semuanya sama-sama tidak bisa terulang kembali.

12 bulan udah selesai, 12 bulan lagi yang harus kita lalui. Tapi ya, kalo kitanya sama-sama aja tiap tahun, apa yang berganti??

"New year, new book." Okay. Tapi lo sendiri sebagai penulisnya kan. Kalo emang gitu, gantilah pena yang lo pake jadi lebih bagus lagi, atau kertasnya jadi yang lebih berkualitas. Jangan bikin buku yang gitu-gitu aja. Bosen bacanya.

Gue inget waktu gue SD, gue sok-sok an bikin "new years resolution", tapi keesokan harinya, tu kertas udah kagak tau kemana.

Yaa bisa gue bilang, "new years resolution" itu agak bullshit. Well, for some people, it just something that we do to remember our flaws for the past year, and try to fix it the year after. Or maybe, something to make us do new stuffs. That we ended up not doing it, because we're too cozy on our comfort zone.

I don't judge sih, karena pasti bakal kembali lagi ke diri kita sendiri. Tapi gue lebih mending nggak usah nulis apa-apa, soalnya nanti bakal jadi tuntutan buat kita, dan bisa ngebebanin kita. So yeah, if you really want to do it, don't spent time on listing it down, and just go for it!

Gue sendiri juga begitu sekarang, otak gue adalah catatan resolusi taun baru sendiri. InsyaAllah.

ARSP
Peace out
4 Jan, 2016