That Five Seconds Where You Relieve It Was Ending

(kelanjutan dari When I Build A Rollercoaster For Just A Week )

Seharusnya gue nulis ini 30 Juli, waktu pengumuman benerannya. Tapi karena pada hari itu gue udah capek banget jadinya gue tinggal tidur karena pengumuman tak kunjung datang. Besoknya tanggal 31, pagi harinya gue cek email, dan yang ada gue liat di inboxnya adalah...

Dengan membaca "We regret to inform you..." gue langsung mengasumsi kalo lanjutannya adalah "That you didn't get the scholarships." selama 5 detik antara jempol gue memencet email tersebut sampe screennya berganti ke isi emailnya. Karena ternyata email itu berisi...

Perasaan pertama gue itu campur aduk antara kesel dan lega. Kesel karena diundur, lega karena ternyata itu bukan yang gue kira.

Dan selama 1 hari itu, gue cuman melanjutkan hari seperti biasa.

Tibalah pada tanggal 1 Agustus, hari yang telah ditentukan sebagai pengumuman benerannya. Gue mencoba santai aja pada hari itu. Tapi gue tetep aja takut dan kepikiran terus, me-refresh inbox email gue terus-menerus, tapi nggak juga muncul-muncul sampe matahari sudah tenggelampun.

Gue berfikir mungkin pengumumannya jam 8, karena waktu email sebelumnya di kirim jam 8 juga. Tapi tetep aja juga ga muncul-muncul walaupun udah jam 9 malem.

Dan ketika gue memutuskan untuk mengakhiri hari itu. Gue me-refresh untuk yang terakhir kalinya...

Datanglah email itu.

Gue langsung menjerit-jerit, langsung panggil nyokap gue untuk melihat pengumumannya sama-sama. Gue membuka email tapi gue langsung ngumpet di belakang nyokap, nggak berani liat apa-apa. Gue membiarkan nyokap yang menatap langsung layar laptop gue. Menatap apa jawaban dari semua usaha dan doa gue selama ini.

Dan Nyokap bilang, "Arissa Purilawanti..."

Gue pun langsung ikutan liat dan ternyata, alhamdulillah, gue berhasil mendapatkan beasiswa sebanyak 50%!!!



Ini nggak terduga banget, karena yang gue bayangkan selalu 100% atau nggak sama sekali.
Tetapi pasti Allah punya jawaban yang lebih baik untuk gue.

Gue mensyukuri apa yang gue dapat.

Merasa gagal? Pasti. 

Karena gue gagal untuk membebaskan orang tua gue dari biaya-biaya sekolah yang nggak murah. Tapi mama pun bilang ke gue kalo semua pasti ada jalannya. Asalkan kita selalu berdoa kepada yang di Atas.

Setelah keadaan hectic yang paling menegangkan dalam hidup gue (setelah gue pikir-pikir mungkin ini rasanya jadi anak yang ikutan SBMPTN)

Akhirnya gue bisa bernafas lega.

Gue nggak akan menyia-nyiakan ini, gue akan belajar yang rajin dan giat biar beasiswa gue nggak di cabut (biar SAE ga nyesel ngasih gue potongan stengah harga)

Semangat juga buat yang lain, yang telah mendapat apa yang diinginkan, atau yang doanya belum dikabulkan. Percayakan saja semua kepada-Nya. Karena Ia lah yang tau apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

Jangan pernah putus harapan atau berkecil hati, teruslah bermimpi karena itulah alasan kita hidup.

Ttd, 


Arissa Purilawanti.
(Your future movie director)

Fundamentals of Caring

My definition of a good movie is the one that could make you laugh and teared up on one sitting. And only a good writer that could drive the watcher's feeling upside down. Not every movie has that potential but I just discover one and I would like to share it to the world.

The Fundamentals of Caring

I, for one, is a big fan of Paul Rudd. Since the movie I Could Never Be Your Woman to The Admission and even Ant-Man, and since his appearance on Friends. I would vow that I'm gonna watch every movies with him on it, I even watched Anchorman! (credits to my boyfriend). And when I see his face on the "watch next" of Netflix, I automatically pressed it. Oh and there's Selena Gomez's face too (she's also my favorite actress, coincidentally)

At first, I was kinda cringed to watch a medical related movie. Bcs the story is about a boy whom diagnosed with DHS. So I paused for a day or two. Finding another movie that maybe more interesting to watch. But that time I only found Eat Pray Love, a movie I've been trying to watch but I just cant. So I got back with it. And the thought of medical term is really just me judging, I lmao-ed through it because Paul character, Ben, is making us easy to see the sickness of Trevor. He even make fun of it a lot to reduce the awkwardness.

Selena's character, Dot, also the highlight of the movie, because she's obviously bring the romantic vibes for Trevor. She's the bad-ass character that we need to complete the trio. But then another woman character come named Peaches, whom pregnant and was there to open up Ben's traumatic issues with his child death. 

The conflict of the stories goes around between Ben's trying to forget about his late-child and Trevor's relationships with his father, and also his bucket list of seeing Rufus; The World's biggest Bovine (its the funniest part lol!! especially with Trevor's, Rufus's, and Ben's stare back-to-back transition that just killed me) and also "The World's Deepest Pit" and how Ben always trying to help Trevor to pee standing up.

The best moment I would say was when Ben helped Peaches delivers her baby (with a slight flashback of Ben's child accident), Ben finally knows how to make Trevor's dreams of peeing standing up come true, and every Trevor and Ben love and hate-father and son like-relationships.

In the end Ben resign, but they still remains friends and I'm glad, that means he could be closer than a contract job.

Favourite Quotes:

"Bullshit on a stick"

"Bite of a Slim Jim"

"Mall."

"Ma."

"Of course Trevor was joking. Anna quits the next day."