Where You'd Wanna Go?

I think everybody's life is miserable.

People choose what they want us to see
They choose the perfect word, the perfect picture

I once heard a saying, "If you dont want problem in your life, then don't live."
(But in the non suicidal way)
Problem never rest, they will haunt you for life
And we can never run and hide.

Is it possible for a person to be happy all the time?
No.
Is it possible for a person to look happy all the time?
Yes.

I think the more you pretend, the one who gets fooled is yourself.

Lol especially if you have emotional problem,
good luck with that.

5/5/17

Ps: Relax, its not you, its me.

Stoopid

I dont know why
But i feel like I always do something stupid
Something that I would be regret in the next 5 minutes after doing it
I believe everything happens for a reason
But is it really?
I feel like the dumbest person on earth
I did something stupid a few months back and I still dont know why I'd do that such thing
Should I just not do something on my own then?
Should I stop saying anything?

2:58 AM
3/5/27

Tell Me.

tell me, if im 3 years older now, would i still be like this?
worrying about unimportant things in life.

tell me, if im 5 years older now, would i still be like this?
thinking about the happiest place in the future.

tell me, if im 10 years older now, would i still be like this?
feeling lonely about waking up in the middle of the night alone.

tell me, if im 20 years older now, would i still be like this?
silently seeking for help and company, just to feel whats it like being truly loved.

tell me, if im 30 years older now, would i still be like this?
afraid of being forgotten every now and then.

tell me, if im 50 years older now, would i still be like this?
being sad of losing my best memories.

tell me, if im 100 years older now, would i even still remember any of this?

11:00 PM
1/5/17

9 4 9

When we love something
We want that and only that
Nothing else will come in mind

Is that good?
No it's not
Too much of anything is never a good idea.

Sometimes we love it so much
We begin to not see the really important things in life
Because we cherish them and fearing everyday that we might lose them.

But do you know
Everybody and everything in this life,
Nothing but just a moment's pleasure.

Your favourite food
Will not be tasted again
After an hour

Your favourite clothes
Will ripe
When you grow

It's inevitable
To keep something
For ever

But what it is possible
Is to let go
For the sakes of sane.

I will let you go
For the best of us
Of our parents, and our childrens.

No tears shed
Just an abnormal heart beating
Of nervous, and excite.

Your name,
Will still appear
In my prayers.

Will we meet again
Or will we not
I would never regret.

Take care,
Be safe,
Love.

I love you
But,
I love Him more.

25/2/17

Love Actually Review

It was 2012 when I first watched this movie and I remember that I liking it so much until I consider this as one of the best romcom for me. Now on 2017 I watched it again to recall what it is that I like about the movie very much.

So I watched it after I watched About Time, and I fell veryyy in love with the movie. So I guess I should watch Love Actually too since its also a movie directed by the same Richard Curtis.

It's an omnibus movie which consist of multiple love stories. Some get a bigger portion than others. Some just appear as a side story. But each of it represent every love victims that could happened. The friendzoned, the single, the old married couple, the child, the widower, the secret admirer, the cheater and the cheated on. So I guess it meant for every love aspects that exist.

These are my chosen favourite happy ending story:

1. Jamie (Colin Firth) and Aurelia (Sienna Guillory) (the scene when they dive into the pond trying to catch Jamie's paperwork and each saying something oppositely with different language but no one aware is HILARIOUS)

2. John (Martin Freeman) and Judy (Joanna Page), actually the very moment I saw them I was disgusted as hell. I wouldn't like what I see but I like what it turned out to be. I love the idea that even tho they were making physically contact with bare skin, the reason why they both felt very comfortable with each other is because the way they could have small talks in between. Which they never felt with anyone else before. (And how they still felt very awkward during their first kiss.)

These are my chosen favorite sad ending story:

1. Harry (Alan Rickman) and Karen (Emma Thomson). Their relationships is one of those oh please it's possible to happen moment. It's about getting old and the fact that we couldnt avoid that. We will have wrinkled faces and widen stomach or loosen thighs. And the fact that man always like what they see, so will they still be in love with their wives when they're not young and beautiful anymore? It's not a suprise when we see a man wants a younger woman to have fun with.

The thing about their story in the movie is that we couldn't see the conclusion right away in the end. Are they making up or not. Since its a kiss on a cheek not on a lips. Even if they reconcile, it would be for the sakes of the children not for the sakes of the relationships.

2. Sarah and Karl. What it is that's more miserable when you can finally be together with the love of your life that you've been secretly admiring for as long as you can remember?

We can feel the eagerness about Sarah making the first move. And the excitement when they finally have a slow dance. And grumble when Sarah has to answers all her brother calls, interrupting what might have been with Karl. In the end they're not being together because Sarah felt has the responsible to give her brother full attention because their parents is not there anymore, so zero time for love.

What I Like About The Movie Itself.

The Intro and The Ending

Both the intro and the ending are set on the airport. At the intro, the narrator which sounded so much like Colin Firth said that the airport is the place that can makes us believe again that love actually is around. So its obvious that for no reason at all everyone is returning back from somewhere. (except for Jack and Judy, they were leaving somewhere else)

Though when all the characters has reunited, it doesnt end there. There's a multiple scenes on one frame that shows people we're not aware about, just a buch of strangers that are genuinely happy to see their loved one back. Which it is what you will actually see when you go to an airport.


The Transition

If we paid attention during every transition to one story to another. We can hear that there's a song in between, connecting them. (the song of the funeral to the wedding, or Sam's drums to the office chrismast party) Some cases it's the use of the dialogue. Like when in the radio station when Billy was being interviewed, the broadcaster mentioned about the prime minister and next it cut to the scene of the prime minister itself.

Honorable Mention

Rowan Atkinson Cameo

During this scene, somehow we can feel what Alan Rickman felt when he's sneaking out to buy his secretary a necklace but Rowan Atkinson has to "wrapped the gift" first and it was one hell of a gift wrapping.


That's all my review of Love Actually movie, I really liked it but I'm not sure if I would watch it with my children around. Still one of my best romcom! :)

That Five Seconds Where You Relieve It Was Ending

(kelanjutan dari When I Build A Rollercoaster For Just A Week )

Seharusnya gue nulis ini 30 Juli, waktu pengumuman benerannya. Tapi karena pada hari itu gue udah capek banget jadinya gue tinggal tidur karena pengumuman tak kunjung datang. Besoknya tanggal 31, pagi harinya gue cek email, dan yang ada gue liat di inboxnya adalah...

Dengan membaca "We regret to inform you..." gue langsung mengasumsi kalo lanjutannya adalah "That you didn't get the scholarships." selama 5 detik antara jempol gue memencet email tersebut sampe screennya berganti ke isi emailnya. Karena ternyata email itu berisi...

Perasaan pertama gue itu campur aduk antara kesel dan lega. Kesel karena diundur, lega karena ternyata itu bukan yang gue kira.

Dan selama 1 hari itu, gue cuman melanjutkan hari seperti biasa.

Tibalah pada tanggal 1 Agustus, hari yang telah ditentukan sebagai pengumuman benerannya. Gue mencoba santai aja pada hari itu. Tapi gue tetep aja takut dan kepikiran terus, me-refresh inbox email gue terus-menerus, tapi nggak juga muncul-muncul sampe matahari sudah tenggelampun.

Gue berfikir mungkin pengumumannya jam 8, karena waktu email sebelumnya di kirim jam 8 juga. Tapi tetep aja juga ga muncul-muncul walaupun udah jam 9 malem.

Dan ketika gue memutuskan untuk mengakhiri hari itu. Gue me-refresh untuk yang terakhir kalinya...

Datanglah email itu.

Gue langsung menjerit-jerit, langsung panggil nyokap gue untuk melihat pengumumannya sama-sama. Gue membuka email tapi gue langsung ngumpet di belakang nyokap, nggak berani liat apa-apa. Gue membiarkan nyokap yang menatap langsung layar laptop gue. Menatap apa jawaban dari semua usaha dan doa gue selama ini.

Dan Nyokap bilang, "Arissa Purilawanti..."

Gue pun langsung ikutan liat dan ternyata, alhamdulillah, gue berhasil mendapatkan beasiswa sebanyak 50%!!!



Ini nggak terduga banget, karena yang gue bayangkan selalu 100% atau nggak sama sekali.
Tetapi pasti Allah punya jawaban yang lebih baik untuk gue.

Gue mensyukuri apa yang gue dapat.

Merasa gagal? Pasti. 

Karena gue gagal untuk membebaskan orang tua gue dari biaya-biaya sekolah yang nggak murah. Tapi mama pun bilang ke gue kalo semua pasti ada jalannya. Asalkan kita selalu berdoa kepada yang di Atas.

Setelah keadaan hectic yang paling menegangkan dalam hidup gue (setelah gue pikir-pikir mungkin ini rasanya jadi anak yang ikutan SBMPTN)

Akhirnya gue bisa bernafas lega.

Gue nggak akan menyia-nyiakan ini, gue akan belajar yang rajin dan giat biar beasiswa gue nggak di cabut (biar SAE ga nyesel ngasih gue potongan stengah harga)

Semangat juga buat yang lain, yang telah mendapat apa yang diinginkan, atau yang doanya belum dikabulkan. Percayakan saja semua kepada-Nya. Karena Ia lah yang tau apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

Jangan pernah putus harapan atau berkecil hati, teruslah bermimpi karena itulah alasan kita hidup.

Ttd, 


Arissa Purilawanti.
(Your future movie director)

Fundamentals of Caring

My definition of a good movie is the one that could make you laugh and teared up on one sitting. And only a good writer that could drive the watcher's feeling upside down. Not every movie has that potential but I just discover one and I would like to share it to the world.

The Fundamentals of Caring

I, for one, is a big fan of Paul Rudd. Since the movie I Could Never Be Your Woman to The Admission and even Ant-Man, and since his appearance on Friends. I would vow that I'm gonna watch every movies with him on it, I even watched Anchorman! (credits to my boyfriend). And when I see his face on the "watch next" of Netflix, I automatically pressed it. Oh and there's Selena Gomez's face too (she's also my favorite actress, coincidentally)

At first, I was kinda cringed to watch a medical related movie. Bcs the story is about a boy whom diagnosed with DHS. So I paused for a day or two. Finding another movie that maybe more interesting to watch. But that time I only found Eat Pray Love, a movie I've been trying to watch but I just cant. So I got back with it. And the thought of medical term is really just me judging, I lmao-ed through it because Paul character, Ben, is making us easy to see the sickness of Trevor. He even make fun of it a lot to reduce the awkwardness.

Selena's character, Dot, also the highlight of the movie, because she's obviously bring the romantic vibes for Trevor. She's the bad-ass character that we need to complete the trio. But then another woman character come named Peaches, whom pregnant and was there to open up Ben's traumatic issues with his child death. 

The conflict of the stories goes around between Ben's trying to forget about his late-child and Trevor's relationships with his father, and also his bucket list of seeing Rufus; The World's biggest Bovine (its the funniest part lol!! especially with Trevor's, Rufus's, and Ben's stare back-to-back transition that just killed me) and also "The World's Deepest Pit" and how Ben always trying to help Trevor to pee standing up.

The best moment I would say was when Ben helped Peaches delivers her baby (with a slight flashback of Ben's child accident), Ben finally knows how to make Trevor's dreams of peeing standing up come true, and every Trevor and Ben love and hate-father and son like-relationships.

In the end Ben resign, but they still remains friends and I'm glad, that means he could be closer than a contract job.

Favourite Quotes:

"Bullshit on a stick"

"Bite of a Slim Jim"

"Mall."

"Ma."

"Of course Trevor was joking. Anna quits the next day."