Puasa sebentar lagi~

Tak terasa sebentar lagi kita akan bertemu,
Ramadhan ke 19 ku,
Sulit diungkapkan betapa aku merindukanmu.

Merindukan kebersamaan yang kau berikan,
Bersama-sama di meja makan menunggu bedug,
Sambil tak sabar mencium harum kolak pisang buatan ibu.

Namun, puasa ini akan sedikit berbeda,
Puasa pertamaku sebagai anak kuliahan, di lingkungan yang baru.
Puasa pertama tanpa saudara kembarku.
Puasa pertama tanpa embah putriku.

Bulan yang sangat sayang bila disia-siakan begitu saja,
Bulan untuk memperingati turunnya buku yang sangat suci nan sakti,
Bulan untuk merayakan lahirnya agamaku.
Bulan dimana setan-setan digembok erat-erat di balik jeruji!

Aku ingat, ramadan tahun lalu waktu aku pertama kali diberi pikiran "Apa gue berhijab aja ya?" setelah menonton dokumenter di Netflix tentang pertumbuhan seorang anak laki-laki yang punya nafsu belaka ketika melihat cewe dengan baju terbuka. Padahal tak pernah seumur hidup aku bakal mengira aku akan berpikiran seperti itu.

Aku ingat, ramadan tahun lalu aku menghabiskan waktu bersama teman-temanku untuk membuat sebuah film pendek ke tiga ku.

Aku ingat, ramadan tahun lalu aku harus menjaga keponakanku yang berumur 10 tahun, dan aku mengajaknya menonton film horor di bioskop.

Apakah yang akan kau berikan padaku di ramadan tahun ini?

Aku tak sabar menunggunya.

Sampai bertemu sebentar lagi!

Insya Allah.

ARSP
10:43 PM

Last Words.

What would your last words be?
Who'd be the last person you talk?
What'd be the last thing you do?
What/who would be the last thing you thinking of?
What'd your last food be?
What'd your last song be?
What'd be your last thing to watch?

If your last breath is in another 5 seconds,
What would you feel? Relieved or scared?
Are you ready to face your own death?
Have you properly say goodbye to those you loved?
Have you apologizes to those you hurt?
And forgive to those hurt you?

Dont say that you didnt expect this,
You knew it all along
But you just pretend like it was nothing.

Now it would be your own business to settle
Only this time its not for money.

See you on the other side.

Where You'd Wanna Go?

I think everybody's life is miserable.

People choose what they want us to see
They choose the perfect word, the perfect picture

I once heard a saying, "If you dont want problem in your life, then don't live."
(But in the non suicidal way)
Problem never rest, they will haunt you for life
And we can never run and hide.

Is it possible for a person to be happy all the time?
No.
Is it possible for a person to look happy all the time?
Yes.

I think the more you pretend, the one who gets fooled is yourself.

Lol especially if you have emotional problem,
good luck with that.

5/5/17

Ps: Relax, its not you, its me.

Stoopid

I dont know why
But i feel like I always do something stupid
Something that I would be regret in the next 5 minutes after doing it
I believe everything happens for a reason
But is it really?
I feel like the dumbest person on earth
I did something stupid a few months back and I still dont know why I'd do that such thing
Should I just not do something on my own then?
Should I stop saying anything?

2:58 AM
3/5/27

Tell Me.

tell me, if im 3 years older now, would i still be like this?
worrying about unimportant things in life.

tell me, if im 5 years older now, would i still be like this?
thinking about the happiest place in the future.

tell me, if im 10 years older now, would i still be like this?
feeling lonely about waking up in the middle of the night alone.

tell me, if im 20 years older now, would i still be like this?
silently seeking for help and company, just to feel whats it like being truly loved.

tell me, if im 30 years older now, would i still be like this?
afraid of being forgotten every now and then.

tell me, if im 50 years older now, would i still be like this?
being sad of losing my best memories.

tell me, if im 100 years older now, would i even still remember any of this?

11:00 PM
1/5/17